Bending Reality

I have walked through several situations the last few months which have pushed me deeper into my self-awareness and understanding more so than I have ever known.  These moments have caused me to withdraw from social interaction, family, friends and my creative nature.  However, this is not a negative thing.  It is actually quite the opposite for I have gained clarity and peace once again. By being put in a new place, a deeper place, it was important to find the silence.  To be able to disconnect and take me away into my sanctuary.  It is a place I visualize within, a safe haven sealed away where I can mentally, emotionally and spiritually walk into and seal the door closed. In this place, I can dissect myself by looking in from the outside.  This is where I have been, and I have come to a deeper realization of a strict structuring which no longer serves me.  A new understanding which frees me from self-criticism, angst, and self-doubt.  I have f...

The world falls away Nothing more a man can pay Only that which is the soul What is it the heart holds Easier to pretend than bleed Ravenous hunger of love to feed Walking dead, superficial spawn Void and empty, dusk to dawn Grasping at air, blinded eyes Deafened ears, covered lies Seeping wounds never healed Hate filled soul’s darkness seals The world falls away Much more a man can say Only that which is the soul What is it the heart holds The simple truth, no pretense Stepping forth in love's defense Filled with life, inner light shines Communion again with the divine Entering between, knowing eye Hearing wisdom, willing to try Forgiveness covers and heals Loved filled souls beauty seals Blended together yin and yang Age to age life brings forth change Embracing the totality of it all Light and dark, wisdom's sweet call  Together we choose to live or bleed No longer you or me, it is now we Flow of life, energy ...

Music, blended notes Cascade through moments Enveloping the senses Existence expands Outside boundaries Back and forth Across the strings Notes whispered in air Ivory keys caressed Making emotion bare Gliding boldly in space Imagination set free Leaving behind reality Bass resounds in force Set tempo and time Cycles upon a course Tones and melodies Notes of sensuality Scales of bliss Rhythm and rhyme Sounds pulse and flow Over and under Above and below Space between throbs A cadence and dance Breath through brass Reeds tremble too Adagio or allegro A melody is cast Grandioso or grazioso Pitch and timbre A harmony makes Each stands alone Together, merged Beauty all create Time is lost Stillness, peace Inside the music Wrapped in notes Caressed by tendrils Carried far away For now a moment Here is where I stay 2016© My Parallel Universe |  Source

Blissfully, softly deep in the woods the silence begins to move Winds through the leaves, across the ancient boughs of trees Feet into the earth she stands, communes, connects and breathes Unseen fingers caress her form, lifting her hair to dance in the light Healing resides within this place, thresholds revealed across space All are connected, the light and the dark, each to leave their mark Tears show the torment of a rended soul, her soft spirit now cold Understanding gained, absorbing the pain brings growth not shame Strength from below and grace from above, a soul destined for love Casting away darkness, choosing to fight and bring forth her light One, two, three, four and five the circle is formed and set to guard What has been done, karma released, now sealed within time's space Heart was pure, no stain within its core, torn, crushed upon the floor   Raising her hands in prayer, speaking her truth to the darkening sky Moonlight covers, a sweet em...

Sliding doors, separate spaces Too much noise, too many faces Need to find a place of peace Find my center balanced on my feet Connect once again with the divine Find the path, a way that is mine Too far gone to make it right Keeping the future within sight Trying not to look behind Nothing there for a soul to find Once before now long forgotten Just as the leaves fall in the autumn Memories fall against the cold ground Broken tendrils of life to be found Whisked away with winds of change Simple moments, nothing stays the same Willingness to learn and to grow Embracing everything there is to know Surrendering to the beautiful possibilities Bare and open, total vulnerability A place of peace will always be found Within the rain, wind or breath is the sound Tone of acceptance and unconditional love Filled, whole with all things above Sliding doors, separate spaces Too much noise, too many faces I found a place of peace Found my cente...

In the secret places of the heart Those guarded and closed rooms Places holding love's lost dreams  Visited often, never opened or seen One day suddenly out of the blue No warning, turning there was you Breathing life into empty, lonely days Thoughts of hope and forever made  Light driving out the heavy shadows Memory filled hallways, heart of me Promises made laying bare the pain Healing balm gently over the scars Beautiful eyes, love sparked like stars Holding, merging all things together Knitted hearts, friends seeking forever First touch confirmed all we had known Time is still, waiting with baited breath Hearts flutter, singing within our chests Slow dance of souls, beginning a lifetime No longer searching down empty paths No more lonely nights with emptiness Filling all the dark corners, empty spaces Long tortured waiting forever in the past Hearts where love's light is finally cast 2016© Charlie-Bowater |  Sou...

I have written previously about  filters  where I addressed the concept of how we each have our own unique set we use to process the external and internal worlds we exist in.  Recently I have walked through a situation which has deepened my understanding of my own filters and has enlightened me to the concept of a specific 'type' of a filter.  A filter I did not realize I had. There are the broken filters, which are those no longer conducive to forward growth and are basically the ones we have outgrown and can hinder the development of healthy relationships.  Then there are the  healthy filters which are exactly what it sounds like. They are a healthy application of understanding and knowledge in any given situation helping us to make wise decisions concerning our existence. It is amazing to me to be in a place in life where I thought I knew myself wholly.  Then so abruptly with a full on face plant into a brick wall realize there are still areas...