Bending Reality

Told she could not love him They told her to stay away Behind closed doors he wept Pining in the dark for her His heart breaking slowly Tears flowed to see her face Hear her voice echo again In his dark and empty space Tortured in body and heart They told him she went away Unable to love who he is now Lies they spoke he knew somehow In the country chapel, just down the lane A young woman on her knees before God Before the alter, head bowed, she prayed Grant him peace and surround him with love I cannot hold him, comfort or ease his pain Send your angels for me, whisper in his ear Let him know his true love and friend is near Faithful to her prayers and passionate pleas Each morning the priest would open the doors At the alter to her knees, she fell to the floor Patiently she waited in the chapel, listening Watching the busy lane from the window Till the sun behind the trees fell to shadow Moved by her faith, her love and honesty ...

There are times in our lives we begin to question everything, all that we see, hear, feel, and touch. All experiences in this physical existence become questionable.  We fight for sanity, reason and the ability to keep our world from turning upside down, struggling to make sense of it all. We walk into the moment of between.  Between all things.  That area of clarity where the existence we think we know becomes blurry and we begin to see what exists in the background.  We begin to have Matrix moments. Just like in the movie the Matrix we, like Neo, have an awakening.  Circumstances which surround us 'glitch' and make our view (perception) change.  These moments become our normal instead of being abnormal.  We begin to question our truth and realize we filter this life experience through our own unique perception. What may be real and truth to us will not always be the same for others.  Because of this, we may feel insecure.  Everyone's expe...

Casting anger upon the wind My raging screams and cries Shaking a raised fist to the sky I will not falter or be tamed Beaten down, mocked, shamed I am free, a spirit of the light Casting a glimmer in the night Demons rise and begin to howl Charging with angered growls Twisting, turning I glide about They are shadow, I am light Determined to win this fight Hope within love gives birth Causing demons to be undone Their hatred burns like the sun Claws raking against the earth Giving light, hope to the lost My destiny, whatever the cost Death drips from their mouth Circling, watching and waiting Scratching at the edges, baiting I will not give in, believe the lie The heart within me will not die Down the path and into the night They stalk to the left, to the right Casting the light further ahead Following a path where I am led Like sharp arrows the curses fly I will not turn nor heed the cry In the distance, from all sides Light...

If I could travel in time Go back, undo, unwind Find myself, just before I made the choice, the mistake Of walking through your door Taking a breath, walking away Now knowing in the end You would never stay Broken heart, pain untold  One less scar on my soul Another path, different direction Affirmed, knowing without question Being able to breathe, no tears to shed Knowing who I am, where I want to go Watching time bend, ebb and flow Would it be better, finding another path Or would I only keep searching Longing for a love meant to last All paths lead to the same Learning of myself, ego to tame Knowing a lesson must be learned No matter the path, I will get burned From the ashes new life grows Purging my heart, a necessary pain Preparing me for love to claim I see your door in my mind's eye Grateful now for lessons learned Heart at peace, I no longer cry Stepping through, I see your face Knowing in all of this I f...

Robbed of breath and reason Stolen kisses, sweet embrace Your caresses upon my face  The heat of your hands The softness of your touch All of this I miss so much Listening to your breathing My head laid upon your chest Love blossomed within my heart Thanking heaven for a new start Beneath your fingertips I was played Within my heart a treasure made Believing love could win this time Fear, the killer, robbed us blind Crushing without mercy, left us cold Passionate love once so bold Crying for hope and mercy, I fell Total confusion into a silent hell Wishing for love's strong embrace You left me alone in this place This would have been heaven Our hearts could have been saved My love, if only you had stayed (2007©) via Fading Away |  Source

Sometimes it is easier to face the external darkness than the internal.  We have a daily life to help us ignore it as well.  It hides behind the daily grind, distractions of the computer and television, as well as the overactive social calendar.  There are many other things which help us keep from spending time with our demons, and of course, they are in no hurry for us to pay too much attention to them in the first place.  If we did, we would be more in tune and aware.  The understanding that the darkness within has so much to teach helps us find the courage to face them. In the quiet, the stillness and the deeply alone times we come face to face with those things which we stuff way down deep.  Deep into the recesses of our consciousness where very rarely we tend to visit. It is when these deep rooms of our inner abyss become over full that we are forced to allow a few to the surface.  Unfortunately, some, when they do make it to the surface, simply...

The Faeries in my garden danced and played The great trees and flowers were their stage Twinkling lights through the fog and trees Their ethereal beauty my eyes wished to see I watch from my window, alone in the dark They beckon for me to follow, to go on a lark Creeping from my room slowly, softly I step Across the hall, down the creaky wooden stairs Around the dark corner where the broom is kept Out the back door, pausing I glance left and right Making sure my parents had snuffed out their light Darting across the back lawn, I cast off my cares I reached the garden, pausing, and gasping for air A smile on my face, laughter bubbled deep inside I did a jig, happiness and joy I could not hide Into the garden, winding through the great trees The heavy scent of the flowers surrounded me The Faeries played in my hair, kissing my face I followed, wandering outside of time and space We played for hours, laying to rest in the soft grass Closing my eyes...